Today is twenty-six days, which is three weeks and five days of the Omer. הוד שבנצח, Hod ShebeNetzach, Splendor of Endurance.
Hod and Netzach are the pillars of the Temple. Splendor and Endurance hold up the edifice we create to interface with the Eternal One. They are drawn to one another, and rarely are discussed separately. They shimmer in and out of view. I think more has been written about them by modern seekers defining the counting of the Omer than you will find in any classical text of Kabbalah.
How do you bring holiness into your life on a daily basis?
I try to remind myself that I am not the center of the universe, or even the center of my existence, by covering my head. Either with a yarmulke or a hat (or on a rare occasion, with a headband). If you ask me about my kippah, and you’re a stranger, I’ll probably smile and tell you I wear it for the same reason a man wears one.
My head covering is my most consistent outward manifestation of my search for depth and meaning. For years, I’ve tried to have a consistent, daily prayer practice. I am deeply troubled at how hard it is for me to fulfill this desire. It is probably the reason my public meditations on the Omer are not consistent this year. Because I am staring into the abyss between who I want to be and where I am.
Perhaps I should stop writing until I sort out how to live the life I want to live. And then, I remind myself that this blog was created to be an exploration of my journey. I’m not perfect and never will be. Let’s continue reaching for splendor and eternity together.
Previously on this day in the Omer
26 Days of the Omer 5778 / 2018: The river of time and the journey of life take twists and turns we cannot control.
26 Days of the Omer 5777 / 2017: Sink into the core truth of your life.