Today is sixteen days, which is two weeks and two days, of the Omer. Gevurah of Tiferet / Emet. Discipline in Compassion / Truth.
Rabbi Lord Jonathan Sack’s podcast today spoke about Lashon HaTov, speaking positive things about a person. I am reminded of it because being truthful can hurt a person as easily as it can help, which is where discipline comes in.
This is extremely difficult for me. My passion often gets ahead of me — I can wield rhetoric with a sharp tongue and a desire for complete domination of any disagreement. Not surprisingly, this trait has not extended my friendship circles or hastened my career advancement.
Having Discipline in Truth means being able to rise above one’s feelings, acknowledging the souls that surround you. Once you are grounded in spiritual reality, deeper truths become evident — you’ll be able to articulate the core goodness emanating from those around you and express clear-eyed love for them.
And sometimes, it is simply impossible to extricate yourself from your ego. For me, that usually means it is time to go to sleep. I may have counted the Omer last night, but I expressed very little Compassion today and I deeply regret my choices.
Today, as I tried to navigate my day without adult companions via Facebook, I gave into my exhaustion. And when I’m exhausted, I have no filter. While my 1.5 year old can’t quite articulate all that he wants, I had no patience for his cries. When my 3.5 year old didn’t respond to my instructions at bedtime, I was only interested in punishing him. Oddly, it seemed that I was determined to go against every piece of advice I read in “No-Drama Discipline.” I think the biggest lesson I learned today is that it’s okay for adults to take a nap.