Today is eleven days, which is one week and four days, of the Omer. Netzach in Gevurah, Endurance in Discipline.
Holding steadfast to negative judgements comes easily to me. Staying clear eyed and focused on my path is eternally difficult. Every day, I battle my Yetzer HaRa, my inclination towards destruction. I am trying hard to discipline my children by first disciplining myself – gaining control of my feelings before reacting to my precious toddlers. It doesn’t always work – sometimes, the bite of a teething toddler is too much.
May we all resolve to endure, to accept our own faults and keep moving forward toward the vision of ourselves connected to deep truth, meaning, and love. This is the endurance in discipline I strive for.
(And may my discipline endure this weekend – may I hold fast to my resolution to look without buying at the LA Times Festival of Books — except for age-appropriate kids’ books. Why yes, we do already own a treasure box of Harry Potter, Beverly Cleary, and Roald Dahl…)