Thirty-four days of the Omer 5777

Today is thirty-four days, which is four weeks and six days, of the Omer. Yesod of Hod, Bonding of Splendor.

I had the privilege of meeting over twenty rabbinical students and new rabbis from seminaries across the country. I got a taste of Dr. Erica Brown’s Torah of leadership and Rabbi Sid Schwarz‘s vision of covenental community.

My meditation for this day is to connect all that I learned from these teachers and colleagues into my own vocation.

All of our work is important to help people connect with the deepest part of themselves. May we each find time today to reflect on how we connect bursts of inspiration to our daily lives. May we each hold onto gratitude, meaning, and truth as we complete the mundane tasks of daily living.

Thirty-three days of the Omer 5777

Today is thirty-three days, which is four weeks and five days, of the Omer. Lag B’Omer, Hod of Hod, Splendor of Splendor.

All of us yearn for meaning and depth. My colleagues and I are on a journey to share the way Judaism can add depth to every day of your life. I am blessed to know them.

May you have a good week, a week of peace. May happiness and joy increase.

Happy Lag B’Omer and Happy Mother’s Day.

Thirty-two days of the Omer 5777

Today is thirty-two days, which is four weeks and four days of the Omer. Netzach of Hod. Eternal Splendor.

Jewish wisdom is deep and can be life transforming. Yet the institutions we build to share our insight and build community do not always achieve the depths of support we need. I am blessed to be surrounded by others who want to be the change they wish to see within our ancient tradition.

The splendor of building community with rabbinical students (and newly ordained rabbis) from across the Jewish spectrum fills me with awe. I learned that the Jewish Humanist movement does not recognize a rabbi willing to lead a service with God in the prayers. Yet, they are willing to share space with the rest of us who place God at the center of our lives.

I met students from the Orthodox movement’s two vibrant schools lighting the way — they are ordaining women at Yeshivat Maharat and men at Yeshivat Chovevei Torah. And students from Hebrew College (a pluralistic school founded by Rabbi Arthur Green), AJR New York (transdenominational), the Reconstructionist Rabbinical College, Jewish Theological Seminary (Conservative), Hebrew Union College (Reform), and the ALEPH Ordination Program (Renewal).

And being away from my family makes me appreciate our eternal bond even more. Shabbat shalom!


A small addition: Attending the Transdenominational Rabbinical Student Retreat hosted by Rabbi Sid Schwarz was a life changing experience. It forced me to face my imposter syndrome head on. And it created relationships for me, not just with students from other seminaries, but with students farther along the process at my own seminary, the Academy for Jewish Religion, California. I am eternally grateful for Rabbi Schwarz’s insight and determination to keep building bridges between us.

Thirty-one days of the Omer 5777

Today is thirty-one days, which is four weeks and three days, of the Omer. Tiferet of Hod. Beautiful Truth in Splendor.

The beautiful truth I witnessed today was my fellow students patiently waiting as I tried (for an hour) in vain to retrieve my jacket and scarf from the plane. And my sister letting me borrow her sweatshirt. And my husband sending me recordings of my children saying I love you.

May we all be blessed with soulful community to help us along our journey. May the kids allow my husband to sleep. May we all have the opportunity to retreat from daily life to reconnect with what brings us meaning.

(I am at a rabbinical student retreat in Maryland.)

Twenty-nine days of the Omer 5777

Today is twenty-nine days, which is four weeks and one day, of the Omer. Chesed of Hod, Grace of Splendor / Gratitude / Prophecy.

Each person must recognize their own limits. Today, I was forced to face my own limits and to recognize how myopically I have been focused on rabbinical school since I started attending full-time last fall.

It is easy to focus on the ego’s desires. When you focus deeply on your own needs, wants, and hopes, you can miss the soul expanding world surrounding you; broken and hoping to be healed. Setting aside your desires and feeling the grace that surrounds you – committing to a concrete action to support another person or a larger community, can help you grow deeper than any individual journey.

And sometimes, committing yourself to a larger community is as mundane as submitting receipts for reimbursement before the grace period expires. This may be the most expensive lesson I have ever learned.

Thirty days of the Omer 5777

Today is thirty days, which is four weeks and two days, of the Omer. Gevurah of Hod, Judgment / Discipline in Splendor / Prophecy / Gratitude.

I’ll be honest- Hod and Netzach are the hardest sephirot for me to try to write something original about, particularly something for seven days straight. This feels like a particularly obvious permutation. Of course you don’t want to walk through life with rose colored glasses and accept whatever happens as the will of the universe. Life is meant to be lived. In creating space for the flow of the universe, we must also align ourselves with a vision of our better selves, and the better world we wish to live in. We each have responsibility to keep moving forward toward wholeness, toward our best selves.

I have no proper transition to what is really on my mind — I had the pleasure of hearing from many learned scholars today, including Rabbi Dr. Rachel Adler and Rabbi Dr. Aryeh Cohen (and the world’s best mohel, Dr. Andrew Shpall.) The topic was brit milah, and hatafat dam brit, as part of conversion. In English – that’s the fact that circumcision is an integral part of Jewish conversion. It’s not simply a physical act — if one was circumcised without the ritual, a ceremony must be performed. There are a variety of interpretations of this entire process and I can’t do justice to all of my thoughts right now. I will say – it was my first time hearing from a feminist theologian and I’m such a fan. The event was sponsored by the Sandra Caplan Community Bet Din.

Twenty-eight days of the Omer 5777

Today is twenty-eight days, which is four weeks, of the Omer. Shechinah of Netzach. Indwelling of Eternity.

Have you made space for Eternity within you? Do you recognize the Sovereignty within yourself that holds space for your Endurance?

A deeply personal conversation today reminded me how easy it is to lose sight of the Indwelling of the Divine. We are each containers for the Infinite. Eternity lives within each of us.

On a scientific level, people talk about the way your cells decompose and transform after death — how everything about you feeds the rest of the universe, while you’re alive and after you pass on. On a spiritual level, our souls are on a journey toward unification, wholeness, and holiness. May we each make space for the divinity within us. May we feel the pulsating presence of eternity with every breath.

Twenty-seven days of the Omer 5777

Today is twenty-seven days, which is three weeks and six days, of the Omer. Yesod of Netzach. Bonding of Eternal.

You must cleave to the eternal truth within you. Without bonding, the eternal become ephemeral.

Have you resolved to move in a new direction? Take one concrete step today to begin the change. Is there a person or community that is particularly meaningful to you? Commit yourself with a material action to express your spiritual attachment.

Meditating on Netzach, and reading the JPS Commentary on the Book of Ruth,[1] has reminded me how incredibly lucky I am to have had the courage to cleave to my bashert, my soulmate. He created the space for me to grow into myself, he provides the material security that allows me to go to rabbinical school while raising two young children, and he is the embodiment of Chesed.

My prayer is that we can each hear the Divine voice calling us to dig into ourselves, to dig through ourselves, and to bond to the eternal wisdom within.


[1]Traditionally, the Book of Ruth is read during Shavuot, the holiday that comes after the counting of the Omer. I am reading this commentary for a course on the Hebrew Bible.

Twenty-six days of the Omer 5777

Today is twenty-six days, which is three weeks and five days, of the Omer. Hod of Netzach. Splendor of Eternity.

When you sink deep into the core truth of your life. When you pause to imagine the essence beyond material reality. When you recognize that your will is connected to the goodness at the center of the universe. When you feel the embrace of love and truth available through clear-eyed discipline. Then you have sunk into the Splendor of Eternity.

May you hear the prophetic truth reaching out to you from Hod of Netzach. May you have the will to birth your calling.

Twenty-five days of the Omer 5777

Today is twenty-five days, which is three weeks and four days, of the Omer. Netzach of Netzach, Enduring Eternity.

I find these questions from Rabbi Simon Jacobson intriguing: “Since I have will and determination, why am I so mercurial? Am I afraid of accessing my endurance and ability to commit? Do I fear being trapped by my commitment? Is it a reaction to some past trauma?”

May your memories help you understand your current ways of reacting to the world, and not get you stuck in memory loops. May you be able to fully process trauma you have experienced and may trauma you are experiencing end quickly.

May you spend today resting in the holiness of enduring eternity, enjoying the sweet light of Shabbat candles, the sweet company of family and friends, and the sweet knowledge that wherever you are on your journey is exactly where your soul needs to be today.

Shabbat shalom!